Monday, December 26, 2011

How Do You Say Goodbye?

 My mobile rang this morning. Not that early, but still earlyish for Boxing Day. Undecided whether to answer it I glanced at the name and pushed the answer button with a "Helloooo gorgeous!"

I expected it to be my friend of twenty-three years, instead it was her husband. "I'm sorry mate, I have some bad news. She's gone."

She's gone.

My friend, my mate, my loyal, wonderful, kind, generous, loving friend. Gone.

Now I need to sit and write once more for her. Not the speech for her wedding, not the one for her first divorce. The one for her funeral. The last of 1001 nights tales is going to be one of truth and love. I am going to bring her into our hearts, not that she ever left. And I will try not to cry. For her. I will laugh and rejoice in her life, and keep my sadness far away.
Lisa 1996

Because there will be two little girls sitting in that church, watching, trusting, hurting. Needing to see and feel their Mum through my words.

I love you Lise, I will miss you every day of my life.


9 comments:

Melissa said...

I'm sorry, Tanya. I can't imagine. My thoughts are with you, with wishes of strength, and a little comfort at least, doing this one last thing for her.

Me said...

Oh no - I am so sorry to hear such sad news. Thinking of you and sending big hugs your way !

Kimmie said...

Hugs
xxx

Sarah said...

I'm so sorry for the loss of your friend.

E. said...

Sorry for the loss of your friend. I'm sure your writing will do her and her family proud.

PinkPatentMaryJanes said...

Oh no, not more loss and sorrow. I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful friend. And for her family. My thoughts are with you x

Kakka said...

Oh Tanya, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. There are no words that adequately express my sadness for her family and for you. Know you are in my thoughts. Hugs from Perth xxxx

Tessa said...

Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss, and especially for her family's. Hugs and praying going out for you and for them.

Lisa said...

I'm so sorry to hear of the loss of your friend. I lost a good friend earlier this year and I still think about her every day, remembering all the fun and happy times. But the sadness still creeps in.

Be strong but be real. All the best to you as you face the challenge of the farewell.